Our first movie date

Bei, this was our first movie date... I was afraid you will shy blame me to choose sit together with you. But was very happy that i could sit together with you. This was our first movie date. Bei , in futher i will owes watch movie with you. This also a part of my dream that i could be do together with you. Bei, i love you. I will take care of you, accompany you forever ever... My wife, i love you forever... I will held this as my promise, i will take care of you... I love you bao bei... 

Miss my bei

Yesterday night was together with my bei and my brother and ahsoh.. Was meet up at bukit batok chit chat... Talk talk then was quite late liao about 4 plus... Haha... When i ask bro to go smoke.. She was talkingto ah soh.. Guess they all know about us... Haha... I love you bei.. You make me was so happy... Its like you had told about us... Haha... Reach home around 4 plus and sleep around 4.45am... Which you already sleep i think so i went to sleep as well.. Wake up around 9am..was shag to work.. But i already miss you.. When reach work, i was keep told xiao dan... Bao bei bao bei...  Night time they was plan to go mac d... The uninvited people was come.. Haha... End up xiao dan was arrange me sit infont of you.. Then end up... Hahaha... Was funny... Bao bei... 4days going quite long for me... I miss youu bei... Must contact me yah bei... I miss you..

Mothers dayyy

Today was waking up around 2.30pm.. Prepare myself to go work and reach outlet around 3.30pm... Just nice you going to smoke at same timming.. Haha.. I can see it was very busy for the day... Gave you a hug... Hope it could make you feel batter... I miss you also... Tonight was quite smooth operation.. Then i said it was because have me... Haha... After work was having supper at mac d... Hahaha... Reach home around 1plus... And now going to sleep... Im tired liao... And i miss you... Love you

Sky was dark but i twill change one day..

Today my day was black.. Its just like blank in my life... After your text, i cant sleep... I understand how difficult you are.. But i will never give up.. Putting in my heart for all this... I never feel angry when told me that... Im just angry to myself im not doing well... I miss you... Seriously ... Im getting use to when ever i go i will keep you inform and its same goes to you. But today was totally blank... Im really don get used to... But i cant stop myself to letting you know what im doing... Im just afraid that you are feeling im anyoing.. Will you? I wanna drag her out of the hell... I will not give up... Cause i really really cheerish this .. Today working like a empty soulz.. Treating guest like a kind.. But i really csnt be myself when this is happen to myself... Don matter what you text it i know its hurt. But you just keep thinking for me and dont want me to feel hurt... Endurance its the only solution .. And i never felt bad or what... Cause im the one who choose for it.. And set it you will be the only one... I believe with my pray one day you will be safe.. Ohh yah, today tot of our vip will come.. I had iron my pants... Haha.. But never come.. But the lunch reservation wAs mess up actually... We know the name but donno the prtson.. Do you all expect us to shout it out from front to the end just asking for the food is who having it?? End up with thr bussyness around 3plus.. Going to smoke and texting you.. Guess you already wake up. But i just dont understand only... End up 6 plus he came to outlet... Awhh.. Wtf... Come for what... Was talking to tiara for one hour.. Pretty tired for today that without any news from you... I really very miss you... 

Yes please

Having supper with u after your work. Was feel that you are too stress and tired. You had eat tomato pasta with chilli n i eat aglio olio. U had order oyster omelete yo.. Haha... I like to eat that also.. After awhile we had finish food and talk cock. You haf told your some of your story..when tell u that time i was almost drop my tears.. Lol.. Feel so shame.. Haahaa.. Then when you told me, i cant control my feeling.. I told you to be my wife.. Guess you are shock and tot im just play with u. Actually its in my heart so long just that i dont dare to tell you. Scared you will ignore me and dont care me anymore. Dear, i will wait for that day... Really cant wait ... To bring u happiness and forever.. Love yea..

Walking thourgh breakdown

Today breakfast was totally not busy... Haha.. I still got time to finish my work.. Heehee.. Im just worry about you. You talk to me through talkbox but when meet that time you dint voice it out at all... You feel other was make you difficult.. I guess i should leave asap... Im the main reason to make you suffer all this.. How i gonna solve this issue.. Hope i can found a new job asap. In the same working environment i was like it and happy.. But one thing is you need to suffer then i dont want it.. Now was reach hippo liao.. Reach marina square earlier then usual. I guess i should not stay at outlet.. It may cause you been talk by other again.. Saw the way you smoke are scary.. Should i just leave right now?! Immediately... But i cant go any where... If disapear you sure will come my house to find me. But i wont, cause i had promise if you allowed me tp hold your hand to walk through this difficult life. I wont let u walk alone.. You are my wife of the life.. Not other else... Shall meet you tonight... Miss you dear.. Listening to 我不是你想像的那么勇敢. This song its start to be very meaningful to me.. Thanks dear

Raining

Goshh, outlet was power trip again... You had called me i tot wat was happening.. Today wake up eye was red condition. Wondering how i gonna wear lens to work. Decided to wear my spec to work today. Feel so awkward today when wear spec. Chef was look at me one kind.. Lol.. After arrange the cake around 9am in the morning was raining.. Feel so cold and jm start to missing you liao.. Dear, im missing you ler.. How wish i can owes be at your side just to take care of you. Anw after work today was meeting u and wendy they all.. I hope tonight was not so tired .. Hopefully ... today i had search about why will have nightmare that you had. actually that was not because you did somethig wrong. its just maybe you are stress in work or you been harras by someone mentally or physically .. so dear dont worry too much yeah... love you dear

Having breakfast today at kfc with my love one and her god sister. After breakfast she went to work then myself drinking coffee at coffee shop. Today start work at 1-9pm. Power trip several time due to kitchen chiller was splash by water when they are cleaning kitchen area. The our boss stay back for awhile to help see the switch. End up asked kitchen to switch off all of their undercounter chiller. Coz that will be the main reason for trip. Service was smooth in the first place then sudently lots of guest comming in when around 3.50pm.. Ghoshh... You just go for your break for 15mins. Somemore there is no food and rice for you liao. You only ate egg with rice. But u asked kitchen to prepare chicken bake rice for me. Feel so touch but when half way through wh was came. Then while waiting my rice to cold down i go to receive the stock first. We went to smoke around 5.15pm after settle down the wh. Night was quite smooth and having late crowds. Wa finish work at 9pm today . Tot of helping you all to do cool rewards and cake. But end up i donno why you was so angry.. Don wan talk to me at all.. I just wanted to help. Dont matter whos shift i also will help. But u had ask me to dont do i dint realise. So u getting angry.. Later people will say bout us again. Im sorry i dont mean to make you angry.. Anw just wan to tell you.. I love you dear.. Take care..

Sleepless night

Another night that I'm cant have a good rest. Keep on thinking of all what just happen. Had not receive your msg at all since yesterday.. I donno what should i do next. Just hope that one day you can walk away from the devil hands. Dear, you are too kind. Dont matter what i explain it will be still the same. I just owes pray for it. Hope that everything will solve. I dont want anything from you. I just wan to give u the happiness .. That will be the only wish i have. Like i promise to you and your family same like to god. Please ... Let her go please devil. You are just a fucking bitch...

24/4/13

5-11 for the day.. Feel tired when going to work.. Around 4plus you was at outlet with that one and sf. Came here coz sf was talking to sir travin. Once i go to front i saw that shit.. Then i dint go approach you. Actually im looking at you.. I miss you .. Its just been awhile. Working like a zombie today.. I had enough sleep of 6 hours should not a problem for me to survive. I just dont understand why myself will so tired.. Today was quite busy .. Lunch and dinner danm busy... But still mannage to handle the dinner crowd.. Going home early today .. 11.pm get out from the restaurant liao.. Im really just not get use to it. Today after i wake up totally never receive your msg at all.. Wondering what are you doing.. So i just wait for your msg for today.. May god bless you, let u have a peaceful rest ... And same goes to myself.. I wont give up cause i believe what im doing its right..

Its was another wondefull day.. Im cheerish every single day that with you. Like what it is, it cant stop my care an love towards you. God please get away the devil. She just wan to have her life. Actually i know most of the thing, that make me think alot.. I had pray to solve the issue.. Seems like getting worst. You said you wanna leave cause you dont want to hurt niether one. But i can feel the most hurt person will be yourself. Like i promise i dont wan to let you suffer anymore. But can just allowed me to pull you out of here? We get started for a new life. Sometime i was wondering, izzit last time i had make tooo much mistake and i did hurt lots of ppl then the karma turn on. I would like to be the one who bring you happiness , cheerful life ,and i will take care you forever. I dont believe all this such karma or what. I believe my love towards you can prove everything.. I will waiting...

Long long longgg

After 16 hrs work and stay awake for 36 hrs finally i had fall as sleep at 1.45am... Today having a wake up call at 9am just because kamilah was late and giving a call to ask me for lixia number.. After wake up at 9 sleep back.. Lol... Whos know it make me sleep again for another 6 hrs... Danmmmit tot of meeting you to have dinner but im late... Feel so bad sial and feel sorry to be late. When come to work u saying that kamilah i jitao feel funny sio.. End up the person was come to outlet so early for wait for you end work.. Feel piss off sial when i saw her.. Donno why got such people and make me kan pua angry.. Donno why everytime when i saw her i felt angry... Im sorry that i was showing you de black face.. Just donno why it could be like that and i dont mean to show you.. Sorry my dear.. Anw today you was helping me till so late.. I miss you badly.. Just now nizam was not happy and throw the bake rice bow on my leg.. Felt pain sial.. Wtf.. End with late donno why i just feel tired and down.. Carry my sad feeling to home... See you tml morning... Love yeah..

Miss you

Awh... Finally today working 12-11.. And you was till 9pm.. Kinda long time dint have to same shift with you liao.. But he purposely put someone with us also... Danmmit.. When i saw he put the schedule that was funny.. Why must put till like that ohh... Haixx.. Your smell owes lingering in my mind sial... Take care dear

Angry days was no more afterwards

Angry day was today.. Out of sudent that actually im still fine. Just felt that change after i saw the shadow. The shadow that there is no where else. Know to physcol people and lead to the dead end. I had rise up my voice when during closing. Im not sure will myself was pipping hot. I just cant control myself. I felt that was wrong.. It could create a chance to make me more angry then.. But after with your text its totally came my down. I feel like break all of the train door like crazy people did.. Ii never to be so stick to you.. Just like the song that you introduce to me.. I wanna put my armor and lead on your finish up my tears of sadness.. In anw that will not my stop point.. I wanna walk with you till the end of our life. Please allowed me to hold your hand to walk along.. May God bless us..

Time ...

Time to have my meal of the day now.. Im just praying for you to cure faster.. Its hurt when u ignore me. Anw thanks atleast you reply me let me know u are fine. Im still worry.. I wan to hold your hand walk this difficult life with me.. I wan to do something that i havent do with u together.. I wan to take care of your crystal heart.. Let me love you and take care of you with my all best.. I love you

I wont make u hurt anymore.. Because it wont appear in your life anymore. I will kill all those pain and have a good life with you. Get well soon... Take care dear... Love you

Having late dinner... The beef was salty... Lol.. Drinking the honey green tea that not sweet at all.. Awh... Someone said that im attitude to the manager..😩zzz im kinda good one loh.. 😂

I just feeling weird... What should i do with all this.. I dont wan to felt it was wrong. Coz maybe i not good enough... I love you

Weird

Today was felt totally weird. Actually what things its bothering me? Im just thinking did i do anything that make you hate me? Im sorry... Just tot of done that thing but i dont mean to make u felt bad.. Im sorry dear.. Till now u still dont text me. Im worry.. Sleep with tears